Thursday, February 01, 2007
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Help to werk fer karaoke today n guess wad, i've jus reach hm, fukin tired.. but reali enjoy werkin in there, sang loads of songs n get $20 tips from customers, n get Alice mummy,my new god ma there, alice mummy is so chio n wonderful, she dotes me like her own, its real fun werkin in there get to see moi cool darling playin pool e whole afternoon in there.. tis job will be perfect if e fukin lady boss didnt eat moi pay.aniwae help out fer two days nia, who cares..
Darlin called n we chat fer 45mins, i've noe him fer 11 mths n 6 days n today is e first time we talk trueli naked[meanin talk wit no hides,dun think dirty]..i finally told him all moi feelings, he told me tis: [i'm so worried fer u tat u drop in too deep fer me till one day u'll hurt damn much, i feel so guilty n sorry to u as i only acc u once a week,i feel so grateful n thankful tat u nv make noise to me n always compromise things wit me] my tears jus simpli roll down aft these lines he said as to me, these words r more then enough, everything i sacrifice fer him became so worth it.. then i ask him abt HER, he said tat she's jus like me nv complain n nv object no matter wad he wans to do,n i ask, so u shld treasure her dun u? n he said he did feel so guilty towards her n so sorry to her but no choice he met me. my feelings were confuse at tat moment. happi or sad? cos i make him feel so terrible. n he said tat e reason y we dun finish aft so mani break up is becos we dun bear each other n i agree wit him..
our talk didnt come to any conclusion of compromise..but one thing fer sure, he loves me like i do n everythin i sacrifice fer him is so worth it..
I want him to treat HER gd.. treasure HER.. n i mean wad i say,from e bottom of moi heart..i've told myself nv go find quarrel wit him animore jus treasure him as long as i can..he's my everything..i jus wan us to stay like now, i dun wan ani status dun wan anithing, i jus wan a quarter of him n to me it's rrealli enough..i'm reali very sorry to HER.. i'll repay her next life.. i'm jus so sorry..
because i love him..